30th post! Yay!
Blog management is a lot of work. Already posted a lot of entries at my other sites after my last post here. I’ll leave you the links, follow me na lang there. Buh-bye!
~And you can also look me up on Facebook if you know my real name. Bleh!~
Dami, ‘di ba? Tara, follow me!
Ang gusto ko
Have you heard Ang Gusto Ko Lang Sa Buhay from ItchyWorms? Cute noh? I like the song and the video. Simple but touchy. Naalala ko si..
I wonder when I’ll see him again. Gusto ko syang maging ka-close. Alam n’yo naman how liking someone and hoping to be more than friends is too much to ask. Mababaw lang ang kaligayahan ko. Just to be close is more than enough. The more I miss school tuloy. I want to learn more, I want to study again. Ibang field naman and if I’m in school, I’ll see him more often, and get to actually hang out and who-knows maging close kami that way. Magiging close naman kami, I know, in due time pero ‘yung time na ‘yun is soon na sana. I really like him. Jeal-ing much na ‘ko sa ilang mga nilalang na as of the moment ay “close” [or uncomfortably close] sa kanya ngayon and those who have more chance to interact with him. Dasma lang pero seem so far away. All I can do in my side of the Earth is reminisce ‘yung moments [na 'di ko na ide-detalye kasi feelingera mode na naman ako. Pero di naman masama umasa 'di ba?]
You know what, I think I’ll write about it but not here. Dun sa other site ko, Imaginary Refuge. You can read it if you can find it. Atleast there, I can be more straightforward and I can actually use initials about the persons I am writing about.
Anyway, I am finally going out today. I’m attending the DLSU-D’s Grand Alumni Homecoming Party this afternoon. I’m going with some college friends. I chose this over the beach party that Andrian and the other DMS Peopz organized kasi… Basta hahahaha. Anyway, I enjoyed the Homecoming last year so I decided to attend it ever year. And I wonder what freebies they’re giving away this time. Last year I got a fisherman’s hat with One La Salle printed on it and an Animo La Salle ID strap. Hmm.. Surprise-surprise!
I didn’t get to write it but I learned so much last Earth Day. Other than init-na-sobrang-lufet-humahagufet, Global Warming may not yet have a direct effect on me pero nakakakonsensya sobra ‘yung every move na we make knowing na we leave impacts that are already irreversible. All we can do is feel sorry and apologize for existing. Nakaka-depress. Maybe if I never gave myself the chance to appreciate the world’s beauty, maybe I wouldn’t care much about it pero now that I did, and still do and the feeling gets stronger, it makes you think how it would have improved the Earth or how teh Earth would have stayed in shape if we never existed. Pero, din, if we never existed we would have not known how beautiful it is to be alive and how beautiful our home planet is. Weird. Basta. Check na lang this LINK and pass it to everyone you know.
PJ-sama and his team mates are competing in an Adventure Race this weekend. Good Luck!
International Book Day today, people! Read some book and share them. Sino’ng may vampire books [basta hindi Twilight, haha]? Pahiram! Hehe.
I am still unemployed. Another isturbing and depressing issue in my life today. I am starting to question the Higher Powers what they want me to do with my life. It’s so big of a hindrance to my big plans, and it’s boring. Ewan. I’m trying my best not to lose hope pero…
Anyway, Spongbob and the Big Wave tomorrow at 10am, Nickelodeon featuring the voice of his sexiness Johnny Depp. I forgot the name of character but it’s Jack K– I forgot what the K is, basta his this surfer dude. Watch na lang.
Superman by FiveForFighting playing in Playlist.com. I think it’s a good song to end this blog with. Good day, everyone. I’ll tell you about the homecoming and a lot more things when I get back.
Good morning na lang!
It finally rained. It’s the first rain this month, or at least the only one I remember (other than that one when I was up North a few weeks ago. I miss walking in the rain. I didn’t get to this time but hearing the rain fall outside makes me feel a lot better. It’s freakishly hot these days and the heat gets into your head. My fan broke this morning, I woke up bathe in sweat. Fuck Global Warming. Sometimes, I have to put ice on my water when I take a bath. It was a relief when my cousin treated us to 2 tubs of ice cream [brownie fudge a la mode and 3-in-1 plus 1] today. There’s still some left and I will scoop me a cup before I continue typing this post.
So I’m done scraping one of the tubs, back to thinking what to write next.
Read my Friendster Horoscope earlier, it told me not to let money affect my mood. Unfortunately, money is affecting my mood today. So many places I want to go to but I can’t ’cause I’m broke. One of which is Caramoan Islands. Yep, that packaged trip on May 3rd that my friend is taking. He offered me and a few other friends slots but I can’t confirm yet because I’m not sure how or if I’ll ever be able to score myself 3000 bucks to join that trip. So, I can ask my dad again but he already gave me 3k for my last climb and Baguio trip two weeks ago and he keeps bugging me about getting a job. Not that I am not trying but it can’t seem to find me. Seems to me nobody wants an inexperienced, not-so newly-grad for an employee. Well, I’m trying to get my mind off it lest I kill myself. You know how it is when people get desperately hopeless. But I am trying to keep myself believing “the greater plan”. I hope there really is one or I’d die a bum. Hahahaha.
Porter incident. I have no business redeeming myself. I’ve seen and heard how people reacted and if people thought low of me because of that, that’s their problem. The hell I care. I needed help, I was offered help, I took it. I admit I wasn’t that prepared. Make fun of me, and what does that make you? XP That’s it. I’m just thankful to all those who helped me. It’s over and done with. We all enjoyed the experience despite the set backs. Move on. Peace out, people.
So many plans this year. The excitement for everything clouds up the frustration and disappointment.
I’ve been looking through old photographs. Reminds me of this thing I watch on tv a few nights ago. Said something like things happen only once so we can remember it. Now, I remember. It’s from Ultraman Max. One of the best episode from any Ultraman series that I’ve ever seen. Nothing violent. There was the usual enemy and Ultraman had to battle it by sending it back. Gurarufan, and ancient being that has power over memories. Basta, if I get the chance to see that again, I’d watch the whole episode. It was set in winter and it was sentimental. I love it. Wala. I just miss the old days, and it had me looking back at the younger years and how simpler it is back then to be happy alone or with friends and had me looking forward to the coming times with the people I am with now and the coming years I have with them to spend.
It may just be my imagination but I want to believe it. It feels like as hot as Summer is on the skin is, it is just as warm in one’s heart. I love the rain but I’ll have these Summer days anytime if it always feel this good.
How it began, I can still remember. Actually, I’ll never forget. He came to the booth, I was on watch. He asked, “Madami na po bang sumali, Ma’am?” I told him, “Kahapon madami, ngayon konti pa lang.” I think he was wearing a smile then, he registered, I gave him an application form, he left. Well, I read his name from the registration form, that’s how I learned his name. I never forgotten him since. I’ve been seeing, thinking and feeling things. I wanted to believe them true and right but then again, baka nagfe-feeling lang na naman ako. I had my chance to know him a little about him, I wish to know him more. Hirap. He’s still in school and I am not. I’d only see him during [...] Ouch. I won’t get to stalk him like I do my other crushes. *cue music: Crush by David Archuleta* Ouch. And Netamashii mode na naman ako with this certain someone. They seem uncomfortably close *sigh* I really like him though he’s a few years younger. Have no idea if he’ll ever like me too but [...] I can’t put in exact words how I’m feeling pero I just really, really, really [really : infinity] like him.
‘Yan sya. May kamukha sya jan na iba na baka kilala mo/n’yo rin pero hindi yun yon. Sya yan. Sino sya? Si… Ay-ay-ay.. Secret. Hahahaha titigan mong mabuti baka makilala mo.
Hello, world!
Just so you know… I really like you. Since when? Since the first time I met you. You don’t know or don’t remember? Talk to me and I’ll remind you.
♥ Levy Eiva
As if it’s that easy?
I don’t even know what the game is. You can’t keep your mind on something when that something don’t even exist or at least not yet. They say you have to put your heart into something in order to succeed but it cannot be helped that you lose your head when you break your heart with life’s frustrations and failures, and because of that you lose your sense of direction and you can’t find just where to place your heart. Makes you think how much life can reek no matter how much you know how life is so great. Guess I have no choice but to think again, and again like I always do until I get my head thinking straight again and I’ll know what to do. Oh, heavens.. I could use some divine intervention [not that everyday isn't but] ’cause I need some help about a lot of things esp. my weight.
I went back to school today to claim my alumni card and meet my friends. Man, it feels good. It feels good to see sunlight again, hehe. Went to hangout with friends esp. those I have stopped hanging out with since before I left school, my friends at the publication, and my mountaineer friends [had a little meeting to plan the activities of the group for the rest of the year]. It was nice having to talk to people other than those here in the house with us. We’re actually kinda crowded here my aunts and my cousins are here with us. And I’m kinda locking up myself in my room because, well, I’m not really into crowded, uh, crowds?, even if they are family. Anyway, all the planning we made got me so excited and looking forward which reminds me, I need to already *drumrolls* Find a job. Woooh. The money I got from my first job is almost gone, partly because I lent my Mom some of it and I’m not really sure when she’s paying it back] and with all the trips and tours and adventures we’re planning, I will need money to be part of it all.
What should I do? What do I want to do? What can I do?
I, myself, am wondering. I need to straighten my head, only then can I straighten up my life. Once you find your center, you are sure to win, says this song from Mulan, but I was thinking: should we know first where the top, the bottom, the left and the right first before we can know the center? This sounds kinda literal but it makes perfect sense to me ['cause I'm the one who said it] that you should first know the place before you can find the center, kinda like using a map; you should know first what you want to do, write a clear, accurate map of it in your mind and you use your heart as a compass and everything else, like your feet, your hands, your character, your talents, are just the tools to help you get there. See, I use to think I wanted this particular thing I used to like to do as a career but seeing how it didn’t work out for me at first attempt, I just don’t want to fall flat on my face again. I’m now doubting if I can actually live doing that thing. I don’t really like keeping things that remind me of my failures, no matter how much it means/meant to me. As much as I wanted to take a big step, I don’t know what to step on to. I think it’s kinda pathetic, I am pathetic.
Aaliyah said, if at first you don’t succeed, you can mess it up and try again, pick yourself up and try again. Mariah and Whitney says, you will when you believe. Celine says, don’t surrender ’cause you can win. Miley says, you control the game, so let them know your name. And the Divas say, if the minds keeps thinking you’ve had enough, but the heart keeps telling you don’t give up. I say, I don’t really know if that works for me.
If only there was someone, who could give me that push off a cliff and wait for me from below as I plummet to my death, and catch me like a trampoline so I can bounce back up and land safely on my feet.. Well, until that comes, I think I’ll stay at the edge and think about when and where, and how to take my plunge, and how to actually survive it.
I had so much fun today, kept my mind off some things for a while. Just like what Cosmo always says: Good times, good times.
I’m at it again tomorrow, after then it will take me some time before I can pay them a visit again. Oh, and I still haven’t written that blog about TNF last Sunday. Oh, well. It’s getting late, I’ll make time for that later.
Nyt-nyt, world! 
So, I haven’t written anything here for a long time, guess what? I’m not really writing anything yet. Hehe. Just testing the ‘new’ Fster bloggy. Hopefully, I get to write something with sense in the future, and I get to inspire people, teach people, provoke the thoughts of people with my writing, that is when I get to write. For now, I’ll stick with my Multiply journal. Thanks for reading anyway.
Testing…
Over and out. 
PS: The new Friendster blog with all these new features is pretty neat. Ahlaket!
Something is so attractive about him but at the same time something about him scares me. I imagined..
"I may not open my heart completely
But this is of my utmost sincerity.."
~prisoner-of-eternity.blogspot.com
Tonight is so blessed. After waiting for a few months, I finally got a glimpse of Cogie. Well, not really in person but atleast I saw him. He’s in this awards night tonight at the Westin Philippine Plaza and he escorted this Sexbomb girl. Buti na lang I watched 24 Oras or else I would not have seen him. Just like when I first saw him, he’s gorgeous as ever and healthier now, hehe.. I really wanna meet him, and be his friend. Maybe I should do something like that Brian guy who did all he can to get this date with Drew Barrymore. More lessons to go in my Internet/Web Application Development and I’m off to really doing that. If he only knew I existed. I wish he gets to read this or someone who knows him… *sigh* After all these years, I’m still loving him. Until that day happens, I will have to sit on one corner and dream of him.
Hi, Cogie! If you only knew how much I love and admire you. I even wrote a poem for you and sketched your pretty face. The drawing isn’t really done yet because I feel like something is missing, you. Maybe when I finally get to meet you, it will be completed. So will be my happiness. I may sound absurdly obsessed, and chances are that you may freak out when you read this thinking I’m some stalker but actually I’m harmless. I’ve been a loving fan ever since I was highschool and the dreams of actually being your friend has been my inspiration for doing things. I wish you can personally read this. I have so much more to say to you but I guess I’ll save it until the day we actually meet. Goodluck and God bless. I love you very much, LEiGS.
If you want to read something with sense, go to my other blog: http://prisoner-of-eternity.blogspot.com
I’m sleepless and bored. I needed something to past the time till drowsiness takes over me and puts me down to sleep.
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background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="2" bgcolor="#dddddd"> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/romantic.html" target="_blank">Romantic</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">90%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/avoidant.html" target="_blank">Avoidant</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">70%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/antiauthority.html" target="_blank">Anti-authority</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">70%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/wealth.html" target="_blank">Wealth</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||</td> <td width="30">36%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/dependency.html" target="_blank">Dependency</a></td> <td width="61">||||</td> <td width="30">16%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/changeaverse.html" target="_blank">Change averse</a></td> <td width="61">||||||</td> <td width="30">30%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/cautiousness.html" target="_blank">Cautiousness</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">83%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/individuality.html" target="_blank">Individuality</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">90%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/sexuality.html" target="_blank">Sexuality</a></td> <td width="61">||||</td> <td width="30">16%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/peterpancomplex.html" target="_blank">Peter pan complex</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">76%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/physicalsecurity.html" target="_blank">Physical security</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">50%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/physicalfitness.html" target="_blank">Physical Fitness</a></td> <td width="61">||||||</td> <td width="30">30%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/histrionic.html" target="_blank">Histrionic</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">70%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/paranoia.html" target="_blank">Paranoia</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">83%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/vanity.html" target="_blank">Vanity</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">56%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/hypersensitivity.html" target="_blank">Hypersensitivity</a></td> <td width="61">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">90%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/types/femalecliche.html" target="_blank">Female cliche</a></td> <td width="61">||||</td> <td width="30">16%</td> </tr> </table> </td> </tr> </table> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <a href="http://similarminds.com/global-adv.html">Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test</a><br><font size="1"><a href="http://similarminds.com">personality tests by similarminds.com</a></font>
I’ll be taking more test later, gotta sleep for now…
